As promised, (I know youve been hanging out for it) here are some recent cartoons, ink drawings, etc..

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Will draw for food...

T - shirt I designed and printed for a friend. The finished print was done with a grey blue background. For a hand printing, it came out very sharp and I am glad to say I was pretty happy with the outcome...
Perhaps influenced by my recent time spent reading about the Expressionists. Ive been doing alot of stuff in ink in the last couple of weeks. Creatively, there has been alot going on recently... everything from ceramic sculpture to cartoons. And I have plenty of stuff I would like to post but must use some restraint.
"The unending paradox is that we do learn through pain." - Madeleine L'Engle

The servant grew up before God - A scrawny seedling
A scrubby plant in a parched field.
There was nothing attractive about him,
Nothing to cause us to take a second look
He was looked down on and passed over,
a man who suffered, who knew pain first hand




Apparently Vincent Van Gogh did alot of self portraits.."Taking Christianity to what he saw as its logical conclusion, Vincent opted to live like those he preached to, sharing their hardships to the extent of sleeping on straw in a small hut at the back of the baker's house where he was billeted;[13] the baker's wife used to hear Vincent sobbing all night in the little hut.[14] "
The Suburban Monk
One of todays pages from my notebook, in two halves to fit it all into the scanner bed. I spent pretty much all day, battling low motivation and the old, "its useless, why bother" voices. But I found my groove somewhere in there I think. The thing Ive found with drawing is that it takes patience. Not just with a particular idea, or the gestation of ideas, ( that in itself is perhaps the hardest part for me) but an over arching direction that is not really noticed. It really is a life long process. Which I guess, might have something to do with vocation. And vocation is often also something one commits to as a patient transformative process over ones life time.
Updated drawing of Power poles. Not really happy with the result. Dont even know why Im posting it. Boredom I spose. This on the other hand I was very happy to discover.
Immediacy seems to work sometimes. Although not perfect, it retains something fresh that I often lose when I try to push things forward. I get alot of anxiety when I try to push things forward to some supposed completed ideal. I begin to fear making mistakes. I fear losing it. And in the fearing, I lose it. What ever "it" is. Something Ive been trying to implement lately ( in between blackouts) is just the discipline of continuing. Keep drawing. Keep exploring ( limitied though it is) and pushing my idea range. Just keep trying.
The desire to draw is usually absent in the lead up to a depressive episode. Its absence is accompanied by a vague, but pervading sense of anxiety about its absence. As if I am fearful that the desire might not return. It also induces frustration. I become frantic in the search for some meaningful inspiration. Despondent about all my previous attempts. A sense of futility starts to creep. And before you know it, Ive been dumped by a ten footer and Im washed up on the beach.
Brief sketch of a truck I saw on the freeway. I was more interested in the symetry of the lines created by the light poles. I am obsessed with streets and light poles. I have been taking a few notes here and there. Mostly ideas for cartoons. But I have had little motivation to do any serious drawing. It ebbs and flows with my inner dialogues and subsequent moods. Every where I go, I only notice colours, patterns, shapes, contrasts, compositions. They never translate into anything good. I notice the bottoming out of my mood in a half assed effort like this, followed by a flurry of intense activity.

